Why I don't love that I love food...

I'd say my relationship with food is a little difficult...

​If I was being completely honest with myself about what my favorite foods are they would be: pizza, sushi, pasta, and tacos. All of these are insanely unhealthy and in a world where all you see on Instagram is fitness models and women with  asses finer than frog's hair. But I love food. I love to eat sweets, but then I feel so guilty about eating them I want to eat what makes me happy, but then I feel like I "have" to go to the gym to work it off.  I know that I am not alone in wishing I didn't love food as much as I do. Its a constant battle within myself to eat healthy, go to the gym, get all the things done in the day, and also be happy.
I should acknowledge that I do go to the gym and I am in good shape, yeah there are things I would change, but every girl has things they would change about themselves. I wish the impossible wish- that I could eat whatever I want and not get fat. So, so badly! 
I do my best to remind myself that I need to keep that balance between happy food and healthy food.  Just that I know I'm not alone in feeling that way, I know that I can't always feel horrible about enjoying food. I am 24 years old, I like to go out and brunch with my friends, I like staying up late and eating junk food and drinking wine with my husband, food and alcohol are a large part of my social life, I'll just be blunt about it. You have to be honest with yourself. 

It's not fair to make myself feel bad for eating the foods I like when I also eat healthy and go to the gym. I guess in my mind, that one back of Sunchips are going to make me as bid as a house. I know that is unrealistic, but that's the way my brain works. I'm not trying to be all "poor me", but it just sucks over thinking something we literally need to survive. Balance is the key yes, but so is talking myself down, and showing myself grace. I feel like I need to allow myself to enjoy life without guilt, but keep myself accountable. Maybe it'll come with age, maybe there's a book out there that will make it all clear, I don't know. All I know is, food is not the devil, and we need to stop glorifying all those with a size 0 waist, and looking down on those who aren't. We need to stop making it a bad thing to be a little thick. Maybe then others won't beat themselves up for indulging here and there.