To the girl who loved me first...

     Thank you. Thank you for loving me from the third grade, until the day I said, "I do". You were my first soul mate. You loved me through the darkest times of my life; from divorced parents, boyfriends, daddy issues... all of it. We held hands and protected each other for years. September 26, 2015 was the last day we were together. I missed you for a long time, and I wondered if you ever missed me. I walked away from our friendship because I felt us growing into our own as different women. I know you did the same. I still check in on you from time to time via social media, I always say hello when I see your mom. I'm proud of the person you have grown up to be. I also need to say thank you for teaching me who to accept in my life to fill your shoes. 

     The friendships that I have cultivated now, are friendships that I will have for the rest of my life. And I have you to thank for that in a way. I know that there were ways I could have been a better friend, and I know that there were times that I deserved better treatment in our friendship. Because of that, I do everything I can do be the best person for the two girls that I am so lucky to lean on now. They love me, like really love me. They accept that I can be loud and sometimes speak out of turn. Their husbands accept me with open arms, there is never a time that they have to choose one or the other. I've been a part of births, weddings, puppies, new homes, everything I thought we would do together. But looking at these two girls, I couldn't imagen doing this life with anyone but them. 

     You taught me how to be a friend, I'd like to think I had a hand in teaching you as well. Heather and Haley are two of the most amazing women I have ever met. That doesn't take away from what we were... but that has been over for many years now. So I say again, thank you. Thank you for all that you taught me about me. Thank you for leaving the void for them to fill. I'll forever be grateful. 

Sincerely,

Har Har