my relationship with religion

​Well, Happy Easter! I thought today was better than any other day to talk about this. I may get some flack, hell, I may have some of you stop following me. But this proves to be another time to point out that this is my space & my thoughts. I want to talk about my relationship with religion. Touchy subject I know!
If you remember from my list of facts about me, I said that religion confuses me, and that is true; in part. But there is so much more. Religion isn't something that I rely on like many. It is something that exists within this world along side of me like the trees and animals, like you. It's just there, and so am I.
Religion is beautiful to me; the way it brings people together in one place from all across the world for the same reason. I'm not a religious person, but I do appreciate it and have respect for it as an entity. You might be wondering why, or you very well may not be that invested at this point. But I'll explain anyway. I grew up with the ability to choose. I decided if I wanted to go to church or not. During the Summer, I went to stay with my grandparents on my mom's side and they went to church most every Sunday- so I did too. But when Summer was over, so was church. Not that my parents wouldn't have taken me upon my request, there just wasn't one.
I have a very difficult time with the "story line" for lack of a better phrase that the Bible portrays. It's hard for me to wrap my head around the idea of a man being killed and coming back 3 days later, when I'm told that as a Christian you don't believe in ghosts. I know, I know, he wasn't a ghost- he was Jesus. He was alive. But if your friend died and you claimed that they came back from the dead a few days later, you would be thought to be crazy and no one would believe you. I do understand that he is a special person because he was... is God's son, but it doesn't negate the fact that it's a little super natural. *Insert Dean and Sam joke that I am too lazy to think of right now*
So this is usually the point where my family tells me that it takes "Faith". Yes, the clincher to all religion based discussions. Faith. I am allowed to not 100% be on board with Religion. It doesn't mean someone needs to "help" me, or prove me to be incorrect. I admire those who have the ability to faithfully believe. I welcome the idea of being wrong. I don't feel the need to be right about God or Jesus. I am open to hearing any and all sides to this discussion. Unfortunately however, 9 times out of 10- it is never a discussion. It's an argument, and that ladies and gentlemen is where I stop listening.
I am not sure if there is a "higher being" so to speak, but what I do believe in is Karma. I feel that you should walk this earth doing the right & kind thing. I feel that what you do here matters. It may not translate into an after-life in my mind, but like I said earlier; I welcome the idea of being wrong, and that doesn't mean that there isn't an after life for you. I believe in peace and balance. I feel that for every action there is a consequence. It may not be immediate, but it'll come.
Now that the idea of children is on the horizon for myself and my husband, the question of wheather we will join a church has come up. And the answer is simply put; No. I want my child to be educated in all religion. Not just Christianity. If they want to study Buddhism, go to Hebrew School, or decide that they do want to attend church every Sunday, that's fine. It's okay. If they decide that they are unsure of God as I am, I will not stifle their questions and if I don't have the answer, then we will find out. I want to create an environment for my child to be an open-minded self thinker.
I want to make sure that I drive this last point home. I by no means think that those who are religious are not open minded or self thinkers. I think the exact opposite. You made the decision to get up and serve your Lord. I have nothing but positive things to say and think of those of you who are on the other end of the spectrum than I. It's all about acceptance and balance.