my endo journey so far

So I have struggled with actually talking about this. I think I have asked my mom, dad, and husband all separately what their opinions are on this. They all gave me the same answer of course; "It's up to you". 

So I want to start off by saying that I am still at the beginning of this journey, and I don't have all of the answers that family and friends may need. 

I went into the OBGYN office about a month and a half ago for a routine yearly check up and pelvic. I have always had painful periods, and other issues with intercourse. It just was something i chocked up to getting the shitty end of the stick. I figured to some degree it was "normal". Some of you reading are probably already thinking- "Nope, nothing about that's normal". 

During my exam, the PA felt that my cervix was not moving... like at all. Which is a slight problem. So she asked me all of the routine questions to see if Endometriosis was something to be worried about. And I had answered yes to all of them. Every last one. 

I didn't know that much about Endo before that day, just that it made you have painful periods. But now that I know it's pretty common and many women don't even know that they have it until they start trying to have a baby.

Many women with Endo have no trouble having a baby- in my case- since my cervix is a McAsshole; it looks like it may be slightly difficult- like less than 10% chance to carry full term. I know, TMI. But hey, I don't know who is out there reading this going through the same thing. 

I am set to have surgery in about another month and a half where they will go in laparoscopically  
and break up some (hopefully most) of the scar tissue to alleviate some of the pain.

If having children ends up not being in the cards for Stephen and I, we have already decided that we will adopt. And that is okay. Having kids wasn't something that was even on our radar up until now. Its a totally different ball of wax when you are told by someone else that you can't. 

I didn't make this post for sympathy or attention. I know that Endometriosis is something that so, so many women deal with, and I just happen to be one of them. I plan to make updates on this journey as things go on, because that's what it is; A Journey.   ​