Letter to my teenage self...
I would start with the cliché, "hey, it gets better", but we all know that. When you are in your teens life blows. Everything is the end of the world! But, you and I both know what life looks like right now.
You are in for a tough road. Yeah, you think you love him and you will be together forever, but you wont. Yeah, living at your grandparents' house suuuucks, but its only for a little while. You can do anything for a short time. Anything. You know that new boy you met with the buzzed head and beard? Give him a chance and stop being a dick. Get your oil changed more often, and don't be so hard on your mom. Shes trying.
Hug your aunt more often, shes done something for you that gave you a better chance at life.
You are so much smarter than you give yourself credit for, trust me.
Spend more time with Mahaley... You wont be friends for much longer. Its not a fight that ends you; its life. You both will move in different directions. Both wonderful, but it doesn't change the sting of loss.
Appreciate Saturdays, you will soon know what it is like to work the weekend.
YOU ARE ALLERGIC TO TYLENOL!
Most importantly, learn to love yourself more. Learn to have a greater understanding of who you are as a person. Hold tight to what you believe in, and use more positive words when speaking to yourself. You are an amazing human, you will do amazing things, and you will grow so much in such a short time. Speak up more, because you are so smart, and we don't find our voice until we are in our 20's. Be at peace with the quite, and embrace the struggle, it molds you into something so much more than you think.
Harley Lauren Murphy